childhood.

I miss my childhood days like I'm not only 19... everything feels like it happened thousands of years ago even if it wasn't even a decade yet. I miss playing, climbing my mango tree, and the most significant.. my childhood friends. How I wish I could talk to them at this moment and I wish I could tell them that I miss them. I want to say that I was hurt that everything that we've been through as kids was not even that true and the friendship I treasured the most was easily forgotten. I want to say I forgive them for not treating me as a real friend and that I'm proud of everyone wherever or whatever they are doing. I feel sorry for myself in the sense that ever since I left elementary I never had any trust to have friends again and yes I did have a group in high school it wasn't the way I could've had friendship when I was way younger. I'm sorry Mina for changing even before you get to experience being friends with her.. sorry that I got so broken that I wasn't able to put trust in you guys.. I'm sorry that I can't open myself and tell you guys what I really feel. I'm sorry for being so emotional that it broke me that I couldn't put myself back together.